Posted by: Chelsea Novak | December 4, 2003

Trust Test

Have you ever felt like you’re watching your own life from the outside? Like it was a movie and instead of being a person with your own will and motivation, you’re actually just a person sitting in the audience. As you might have guessed I’m having an existential crisis today.

I feel like I’ve been moving really quickly for a long time and I’ve suddenly had a chance to stand still. I’m having that moment where breaking from the inertia is like a kick in the stomach. I’m not unhappy or anything like that. I just feel like I’ve been dropped into my life after a period of amnesia. Maybe all the stress of the big move, new home and new job has finally caught up with me. Things have worked out fantastically well, which may be why I feel so strange. Nothing is wrong right now. You have no idea how scary that is.

I think I’m waiting for the floor to fall out from beneath me.

Today’s sing-a-long song: “Karma Police” by Radiohead

HRH

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